Precious in His Sight

This last couple of weeks I have been following this remarkable story of a little baby boy that drowned in a bathtub (Thanks Amy for sharing, it has change my life) here



This story has strengthened my testimony on the power of prayer and that miracles do happen. It has consumed my thoughts. I think about this little boy all day, think about him when I am going to sleep, and think about him when I wake up; and I don't even know him. I have cried more times in the last two weeks then I have for a long time. I promise you will cry too. I have been a wreck. Then I found out that 2 little girls from the same family were not as fortunate. Gary's cousins in-laws lost two of their precious daughters in the same week of eachother and my heart hurts for the family. I know that everything happens for a reason, but man, it sure is hard to understand WHY sometimes. I know that there is a greater plan that we do not know, we just need to have FAITH. I am just thankful that we know of the Plan of Salvation, and when we lose children and loved ones on this Earth we know we will have them again.

So I have made a promise to myself and my husband and children: Enjoy each day, make time to be the best for my family, take advantage of the little moments; because you never know when your world can be turned upside down

NO CONTROL

VENT SESSION: START



I know that I am not the only one out there in this vast world that doesn't feel the same way that I having been feeling lately: OUT OF CONTROL. Like life just keeps going and you don't have a say. Well that is how I feel. I know that we have done this to ourselves. We chosen some roads to take and instead of knowing if we can take those roads we are sitting at a HUGE red light, waiting for someone to come and tell us what to do and move traffic along. I thought I dealt well with change, but I guess I am getting a huge reality check. I DON'T DO WELL WITH CHANGE. Especially this type of change. Like not knowing where we will be living 6 months from now, can we move forward?, are we doing to right thing. I wish Heavenly Father would just give us a huge blinking neon sign and have is say "YES, keep going", or "NO, STOP, be more PATIENT". I guess that is why we need to have more faith and realize more then anything that he is the only one with COMPLETE CONTROL and he just lets us think that we have control some of the times.



And now some of you are wondering: What is she talking about? What changes?........

Well, only time with tell, and when we know, we will let others know. I hope soon, because I am going CRAZY with all these unanswered ANSWERS. I know I will be able to handle whatever this coming year gives us, I just want to know what it is going to be.



Sorry for the vent session.....I don't normally blog about such things, but I needed an outlet. A way to express my frustrations to the 2 people that even look at my blog ;)



Please give me words of encouragement and advice if wanted, because I know that there are a few of you that have gone through MUCH MORE then I have ever had to or ever will. I am just being weak, but I guess I am allowed right :)



VENT SESSION: OVER

Oatmeal FUN!!!!

Let me tell you something very interesting about my baby boy: He has to feed himself, it doesn't matter what it is, I or anyone can't feed him. He also has to have a bowl or plate and eating utensil in order for him to eat. If you try to do anything else that is not in the above directions you will be screamed at and heads will roll !!!!!
It is a good thing he likes bathtime so much, because he sure does get alot.